The 3 week challenge and "perfection"

Well Good morning!

I thought I would explain my 3 week challenge I've got going on and then babble on a bit in retrospective way...lol

3 Week Challenge-

My Lovely friend thought she would just offer this little snippet midst conversation, "how about you get under 100kgs for my birthday pressent?"

My reply?? "Oh, sure, whens that?"

"14th of Feb"

LMAO

First I thought, oh, god, I can't do that. Then quickly it went to, well I'd have to work hard, really hard, almost 5kgs in 3 weeks, but it would be a great challenge, a game even...

So I began the game, today is day 6 of 21 and I am doing pretty well. The plan was to do 40mins of mod intensity work on my cross trainer plus about 40mins of "other" exercise as well. Drink water till I feel like a fish and to eat no more than 21 of my 25 WW points each day. 21 points of very carefully thought out food for maximum fat reduction and max nutrtion.

So like I said, I am doing great, I weighed in 103.4 yesterday morning (from the 104.5 on friday morning).

Yesterday was a bit of a hiccup though, I woke up completely drained, it took all my effort to get around the shops for a few things with 3yo in toe. It just felt like everything I had to do I was being pushed backwards. I ate okay but I didn't exercise and I just felt lousy in general.

Today I feel like yesterday never happened and I'm on the same war path with the same vigor.

Here is the retrospective bit-

When I set out, last Friday on this little dealy, my focus was on perfectionism, I would have to be perfect and totally focussed in order to win this little pressie.

Yet 5 days in I have a less than perfect day and do you know what I paid for it? I put on 300g this morning. And before anyone has anything to say about all this weighing, it's a tool and a part of the experiment, I track my food, I track my exercise, I track my feelings and i keep track of what my weight is doing in relation to everything else, a very vaulable tool in this challenge. Anyway, so that's what my crapish day equalled but i am okay with it.

It's like positive reinforcement, if I want to see that scale nudge down each day, I can, it's there for me to have, but I need to put in the work. Also one day of less than perfect is okay, if I had pushed myself regardless yesterday I probably wouldn't have had the energy to push so hard today. I can handle that, bodies can use breaks too, I just need to be able to time and keep enough control over them so that I keep keep this going for three weeks AND longer.

The thing I found so suprising is that although I didn't have a great day, it was still a really good one (I still got a 4pointer in the pride department, another tale I'll tell ya), a day like that for me would have not only been so much worse but would have gone for so much longer than just one day at one point not so long ago.

I think I am learning how to aim for perfection and yet be really okay with not quite getting there. It won't send me into a total decline anymore, a not so good day is just that, it's not an all out war on my self esteem, big massive leaps and bounds of progression on my part.

I have known for some time that I will achieve my goals, a faith in me. Now I have discovered my own saftey net, I can fall, but I can catch myself not too far down and bounce right back up again. Not to be too modest (LOL) but how awesome am I?!?! Being able to do that for myself. Mind you this clearly shows that I used to think that someone else outside of me should be my safety net, thinking of it that way sounds absolutely ludicrous now that I say it out loud but that must have been what I was thinking.

It is really good to not be thinking that way anymore.

Okay, insight to CJ over for today...lol

CJ

Ooops, I do the photo thing here...lol

Okay, me straight after a work out, oh the glory...lol

...and the swimmer shots front, side and back, clearly.

All Joking aside, this is me, today, at 104.3kgs. I'm not proud of being this big but I am proud that I'm 10kgs down from when I started WW (I was more but chrissy got me, no, I got me over chrissy) at some point when I can figure out how to scan I will put a photo on of me at my heaviest, about 120kgs. I am also proud that I am still working on it, that I will get there and that I'm showing my daughter a more healthy life everyday.

I think this is well and truely enough to start with.

CJ

I've been going to for so long...

Hi lovelies,

Many of the people that will be seeing this know my general background so I won't go into that right now. A priority is to figure out how to get a photo on here before I wimp out...lol.

Back soon,

CJ