My daughter is wearing my old ballet shoes today...

Hey anyone who comes by!

I have weighed in this morning and put on the 700g I lost last week exactly but I'm very happy with that, I knew i would need to do some adjusting after a week on my own and I'm very happy it's not a LOT of adjusting I have to do! lol I did lose another 3cm all over though. Also this week I've gone back to eating dinners at dinner time because I've been cooking them from scratch and really wanting to know what they were like. Every meal that I've made my daughter has helped me with in some way, in fact she would get quite upset when there were no more veggies to chop (of course the dinner goes down in front of her and she picks them out, loves them fresh, not so much cooked, but her dad picks stuff out too so what can I do??? lol), the fact is she is so excited about helping and about the meal to come, she's been so encouraging in her own little way I've been feeling so good about it all.

So meals from scratch will continue, again I have the week planned out, but I went for more lighter options. Adding to that Poppy and I will go for a walk every day this week, and I'm going to do 30mins of higher intensity cardio each day on top of that, and my 15mins of stretching because it's absolutely delicious!

We went for our first family bush walk yesterday, it was fantastic, I was so proud of Poppy she kept going for the hour and a bit and there were so so so many steps and she only needed to be carried up a few. She thought it was great and so did hubby, he actually said that once we were half way he only wished he'd been motivated enough to get out sooner (it wasn't real easy to get him to go) because he was really enjoying it and far preferred to do that than be sitting/sleeping, at home on the lounge. It also didn't hurt for him to see some of the amazing old guys (and girls, but particularly for him guys) that were walking back the other way past you and it's like a stroll in the park for them, on our way back up hubby was really struggling, he said later that he would really like to be one of those guys that are doing that well at such a ripe age, he is noticing he isn't as fit anymore and that's a great first step. He has always relied on those around him "being good" to have a flow on effect so he's being kinda good, he's never actually set out to do something for himself so that may just be in the pipe line...

And today my daughter fits into my old ballet shoes, her feet are just like mine, long and narrow, there is so much of her that is so much like I was. As much as it scares the hell out of me that she is so like me, I thank god that I am doing what I am doing and not only setting the best example that I can, but also providing some of the healthiest tools and habits that I can. Something I am becoming more aware of is that I have this weight on me still, I need it to be off so she has a mum that isn't so weighed down and visually not such a great example, she can chop up all the veggies in the world but seeing me at this size every day is not going to be the best thing for her, and maybe more importantly it's not the best thing for me. I am very conscious of loving me and not the opposite like I was for so long, I feel deep down that that is the best idea I could ever instill in her because loving yourself really makes it very hard to abuse yourself like I did for most of my life. Well I hope so anyway, but the point is this weight has to come off, I have to release it in order to be the best that I can be and so I will.

I still have no time for doubt and i really don't feel it so it didn't happen this week, keep watching because it will all come off.

Lots of love and positivity,
CJ